What A Week!

Did anyone else have the same week I had last week? Everything turned out A-ok in the end, but the journey was like a Fear Factor obstacle course. No bruises, no scrapes, nothing as serious as a broken bone, but BOY-o-BOY it was a tough time.

Every day had its surprises for me. They were mostly the routine type of things that can go wrong, the kind of things that might happen once every five years or longer, and yet they all managed to happen at approximately the same time. They showed up, one right after the other. At one point, I thought I should be taking notes because it was an incredible story, something that was such a comedy of errors that it would be hilarious in hindsight. But while I was living it, I was a struggle to let go of the irksome points and really focus on the positives. And there were positives. Throughout the week, people everywhere helped me out, whether they realized they were helping, or whether I asked for help (which I did frequently). People last week were fabulous in my life. Inanimate objects, on the other hand, were not so friendly.

But I made it through. I even managed to make a pot of my famous sloppy joe mix, which I've now been enjoying at least one meal a day for most of a week. I'm not sick of it yet, but I'm eyeing the last container in the fridge, thinking that one should go to the freezer. Perhaps I'll do that tonight before I hit the sack.

I did not managed to get weighed in last week, but am hoping to do that this week. Don't ask me what obstacle course ran past that goal, just laugh me with and know that it was a doosey.

Watching Myself

Over the last few weeks, I've found that I'm watching myself. The closer I get to my official restart date (Monday!) the more watching I'm doing. It's hard to be objective about yourself, and its hard to see yourself the way that someone else can see you.

What I'm trying to do it see myself as clearly as possible. I'm trying to assess how I'm doing with my current lifestyle. I'm measuring how much of my lifestyle is healthy and supports the direction I want to go, and how much of it drags me in the other direction. Or, how much of it doesn't seem to contribute, because I also want to weed out the uncontributing things in my life.

The pace of my daily living is speeding up. I'm not complaining, there are some really great changes going on for me. It's a good problem to have! I'm aware that I'm having to adjust, and I'm making some changes. For example, my month-at-a-glance format daily planner format isn't giving me enough space to keep track of things anymore. For years, that has been good enough. Now, I need a week-at-a-glance. So I've just purchased my second set of daily planner inserts for 2006.

What I'm watching mostly has to do with how much time I spend taking care of myself vs. working vs. doing things that don't contribute. Am I getting some quiet space at the start of my day, or am I getting up and staggering to the keyboard? Am I taking short breaks in the day to take care of things around the house, running errands and such, or am I just working straight through? And am I spending time vegging out in front of the TV instead of spending time on my personal projects? I don't mind watching a bit of TV, but really, how many TV shows can I really watch in a week and still feel that my priorities are towards my personal projects?

All of this watching is really about observing my priorities in action. Am I living according to the priorities I say I want for this stage in my life? Or am I acting on a different set of priorities? I'm looking for the evidence that lets me know how on-target I am with my lifestyle decisions.

Last night, I suddenly got this craving for a rich milkshake. I don't keep anything remotely similar to that in the house. I was tempted to jump in the truck and grab one. That idea turned into deciding to go to the grocery where I could also pick up some sorbet which would sort of satisfy that craving. But in the end, I opted to stay in the house and go to bed early. I was exhausted and have been waking up tired. I decided that I could slip in a trip to the grocery during the day today, and decide on the sorbet/milkshake options in the daylight. I make my best decisions in the daylight, when I'm focused and rested.

I'm Back -- and Living Large!

Hello everyone!

It's been such a journey since my last post. I've been through some rough life changes, and I've arrived on the other side with my heart healing and growing again. I'm remembering how to dream again. Maybe sometime I'll share what's been up with me, but just know that I'm glad to be back here and ready to dig in again.

Yep, dig back into creating that healthy lifestyle that I started a few years back. Based on what I've learned and the permanent changes I've made in my life and outlook, I'm ready to dig deeper and see just how healthy and happy I can become. I suspect the sky is the limit, my ability to have a vision for this improved life and my determination to duke it out when necessary while slogging through daily living -- those are the only things that can stop me. And for today, I'm happy, I'm totally motivated, and I'm ready!

Let's get started.

Without explaining what's happened in my life, let me just say that in the process of adjusting and expanding to meet the new challenges, I let my lifestyle changes slip just a bit. I've regained some of the weight. I had to go out and buy some larger clothes for the winter. But I haven't gained it all back, and those lifestyle muscles are ready to return to work.

Isn't it amazing? I'm back here, confessing that I've regained some of the weight, and I'm resuming the journey, but I'm not the least bit discouraged?

I did the best I could, and now, I'm ready to improve more. For a while, I knew in my heart that even though the weight was slowing creeping back, I was doing the best I could in the moment. But a couple of weeks back, that feeling changed. I suddenly realized that my life situation had really gotten easier, and I was coasting a bit. I could no longer say that I was really doing my best in that moment. So I decided right then, sitting on my couch, that I was going to do what I know how to do, and was going to recommit to being the best me I can be. I had some commitments to fulfill, and now that those are behind me, I'm spending my extra energy on taking good care of myself. And that means jumping back in here.

I'm going to weigh in next Monday, and honestly, I don't know how much of the weight I've regained. But when I find out, I'll post it here.

This blog has sort of gotten dusty around the edges. I've taken off the link to the newsletter, but I may return to it later. Give me a few weeks to decide. I've also got some housekeeping to do on the site, to make sure that I've got content in the other tabs. So be patient with me, but I'll get things up and running.

Thanks to everyone who stops by to read this, and cheers to everyone who is on this journey with me. I'm ready to laugh my way through this, and I hope we can inspire each other and encourage each other as we go. Life is tough enough, we need to be kind to ourselves and to each other.